Wednesday, November 29, 2023

I'm home from the hospital and back to work

I was released from the hospital midday on Saturday. I was so excited to leave as I'd been admitted for approximately a week and that I'd get to sleep in my own bed - which I was the most excited for. Nothing beats sleeping in your own bed! The rest of the weekend, I was sleeping and doing laundry then on Monday, I returned to work. I was able to take small breaks throughout the day to rest but that ended today.

Monday, November 20, 2023

Back in the hospital - pneumonia part 2

I went back into the hospital over the weekend and I am still there. Doubt that I'll be out for Thanksgiving. As shitty as being the hospital is - the good thing is that I have my own room.

Thursday, November 16, 2023

I'd been in the hospital for a few days

I've been sick with pneumonia yet again....decided it would be best if I were to admit myself into the hospital. I spent Sunday through yesterday in a private room and returned to work today. I regretted working a full day but I don't have many remaining sick days left - I am not fully sure if I could get an authorization for extra sick days or not but not willing to risk/push for finding out.

Anyways, I am off to bed - I need the sleep after a full day and need the sleep for work tomorrow

Sunday, November 12, 2023

Fun with an old lover

I just got home earlier today from spending last night with my former lover - the one that used to work for my brother. He made dinner for us - I have ALWAYS loved his cooking - I offered to clean up afterwards but he declined. We caught up with each other as he cooked, we ate and he cleaned up. I don't think I laughed that hard in a long time. As we moved from the kitchen and dining room, he leaned in to kiss me. I was shocked as we had barely kissed in the past but I accepted it and leaned into it. As we kissed, our hands were all over each other. 

We made it into the bedroom, kissing, taking our clothes off. For the first time, I didn't actually care this time that the lights were on but due to our previous history, he dimmed the lights as he told me that he loves my curves. We eventually made it to the bed. I reclined on my back and spread my legs for my lover. 

He eased into me slowly as his penis is thick. I moaned pleasure. We took our time for the rest of the night; we climaxed together many times. When we weren’t intimate, we fell asleep in each other’s arms, bodies entwined with the other’s. A few times, I wrapped my mouth around his thick penis and sucked him; he shot hot, sticky loads of his essence down my throat. I loved tasting him and loved swallowing his thick loads.  

In the morning, we took turns riding each other. We rode each other until we lost our voices and my apex was sore and slightly swollen. Afterwards, I took a shower and brushed my teeth as he made coffee. 

Once I was dressed, I went downstairs for coffee, my lover went upstairs for a quick shower and brushed his teeth. He came downstairs wearing just sweatpants. My lover looked so gorgeous in sweats and wet hair. Before he had his coffee, we found ourselves back upstairs, naked and in bed; me riding him with one hand on his chest and the other against the wall.
I rode my lover until we climaxed together 5 or 6 times. I felt his hit sticky essence hit my cervix walls and it felt great.

As we caught our breath, my lover rolled us over so I was on my back - he was still in me. It was his turn to ride me…I wrapped my legs around his waist to bring him closer to me. As he was riding my apex, I bit the base of his neck hard - knowing that his wife would see the bite mark I’d left - and he unleashed a massive load of his essence deep inside of me. He groaned my name…fuck, I love how he groans my name. 

We fell asleep in each other’s arms and my lover was still in me. We napped for a few hours and woke up rested. Before we got up, we had sex a few more times and got dressed. I put my contacts in before brushing my teeth again then headed downstairs. My lover followed me a few minutes later after he brushed his teeth. 

As I was brewing another pot of coffee, my lover made poached eggs over toast with holandaise sauce. I poured us both cups of coffee. Before getting plates and utensils ready, I took my birth control and the morning after pill - it’d only been 3 days since I’ve been back on my birth control - and out of the corner of my eye, I saw my lover looking at me funny. I told him that if he wasn’t married and had different circumstances, I wouldn’t have taken either but he IS married and I just got out of a relationship, I wasn’t in a place to have a child. 

He nodded his head, leaned down and kissed me. I kissed him back for a few seconds before pulling back reminding him that food was still over heat. He smiled and finished cooking momentarily, plating the food. We sat down at the table and ate in silence. 

Once we finished eating, I started cleaning up. My lover tried to distract me by kissing my neck, pulling me closer to him. I felt how hard he was. I hurriedly finished cleaning up and followed my lover back up to his bedroom, stripped and made our way back to his bed. I slid up and down his hard penis, moaning in pleasure. Moments later, we climaxed together; my lover’s penis twitched inside of me, unloading his essence in me. 

After catching our breath, we rolled over so I was on my back. When I was situated, my lover took his time riding my apex; he was rather rough but I loved it. In no time, we were moaning and screaming each other’s names. We climaxed several more times. As we climaxed the last time, I bit my lover on the other side of his neck…he was thrusting in me harder…he climaxed so hard. His penis twitched in me for a solid 5 minutes as he released his essence in me. My lover eventually pulled out, collapsed next me and we caught our breath. I kissed him before I got out of bed, got dressed, gathered my things and left. 

When I got home, I texted my lover to let him know that I was home. I stripped and started my laundry from last week and my overnight stay with my lover. After a quick shower, I took a handheld mirror and took a look at my apex - it was moderately swollen and slightly bruised. Fuck. I knew it’d take a few days to get back to normal. I got dressed, took another morning after pill and got on with my day.

My laundry is finally done and put away, my lunch is packed for tomorrow and my outfit is ready. Think I’m going to sleep well tonight. 

Friday, November 10, 2023

Massive fights lead me elsewhere

After having sex with V for most of the day, we had a massive fight. I took a morning after pill and my birth control pill, got dressed, grabbed all of my stuff, packed my car and headed to my former Hispanic lover’s place…the guy that looks like Johnny Depp. 

He and I were intimate last night and he didn’t care that I was with V two hours prior to hopping into his bed. He satisfied me more than V had recently; he was so passionate and made sure I climaxed before he did. We had sex all night and we both loved it; we moaned and screamed each other’s names all night. He climaxed down my throat several times throughout the night, he climaxed in my ass four times (very roughly) and climaxed mostly in my apex. During our breaks, we drank a small bottle of tequila, split between us.

We didn’t care that his neighbors heard or that the cops were called multiple times - they came for a welfare check. All we wanted was each other and pleasure. Due to being tipsy and getting good penis, we broke the bed’s headboard and the bed frame. 

I woke up about 25 minutes ago and he was still sleeping. I took the morning after pill and my birth control pill (I need to get back on my morning schedule of taking my birth control). It’s time to shower, grab my things and head home

Tuesday, November 7, 2023

I’m excited for this week

There’s parent/teacher conferences through Wednesday and then we have a 4 day weekend. I’m looking forward to the weekend as I start ovulating early Thursday morning…hopefully, V gets me pregnant. If I end up pregnant, I hope that I can carry it to term.

Love the fact that we both agreed that he and would try again. However, we did discuss that in case of the event of another miscarriage, I’d go back on birth control. 

On a side note, V and I have been taking turns in riding each other this morning. Due to V’s size and girth (9” long, 4” thick), I’m quite sore right now and he’s loving it; he tries to get me to scream his me. V’s been plowing my apex as he rides me. 

Sunday, November 5, 2023

No plans on leaving bed soon

I’ve been in bed all weekend sick with a cold. The cold is effecting my sinuses and my chest. Since Friday, I’ve been taking 2,000 mg of vitamin c, 50 mg of zinc and some elderberry gummies daily; also been having chicken noodle soup, tea and cold medicine. Still no change in how I’m feeling so I’ve taken a sick day. 

Wednesday, November 1, 2023

Communication is a good thing

V and I have been doing better with communication outside of sex - journaling has helped me and therapy has helped him. It's still hard to talk about the miscarriage and also for us to talk but the conversations are getting better. We've been working on our communication more and having sex less (the sex is still great and mind blowing). We figured that talking would help us figure out what we want to do - whether it's continue with the relationship, try to get pregnant again, walk away from each other, etc.  Some of the conversations aren't easy at all but it's helping us figure out what to do.