So last night and tonight are my last two nights with Vince. I need this time to enjoy the last few times we'll ever have sex again, enjoy time with him, enjoy his cooking, enjoy his touch and enjoy kissing a few more times before I cut my ties with him so I can move on.
**Vince and I talked the other night on the phone - Wednesday night, I think it was? - to discuss many things and this was one of those things. He was upset but he understood, thankfully, as he knew that I can't move on from us while he and I are still involved sexually and as friends. **
Friday, I packed mostly toiletries, skinny jeans, two nice tops and an oversized shirt. I knew that we'd stay mostly at his place - obviously - but I wasn't sure if he'd want to take me out for dinner or whatnot. I can honestly say that I was super nervous being with him again but for the last time ESPECIALLY after I told him it being our last two days. So far, he's been wonderful and a perfect gentleman.....he was being the man that I fell in love with so many years ago and wanted from him the entire time we were together.
I don't know if he's shaping up to show me who he truly is again - being a perfect gentleman, excellent lover and friend - to try to win me over last minute OR if he's trying to show me who he can truly be just to keep the peace until I leave him mid morning on Monday.
To be honest, I am going to miss him when I leave him and I am **ALWAYS** going to love him. At the same time, I need to take care of me, my health, focus on getting a job and moving on in my love life so I can be free of my ties of him/to him.
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