Sunday, October 22, 2023

How a miscarriage effects a relationship

Despite being cleared to have sex since the miscarriage, I can’t get pregnant yet - for which I’m thankful. Both V and I are saddened by the miscarriage, of course, but we’re both working through it. He’s still seeking counseling from his therapist from a year ago and I’m contemplating seeking therapy but I’m not sure as of yet but I’m journaling and meditating. It seems to help me process the loss. 

V and I are still having sex but it’s only when we don’t want to talk. Unfortunately, we don’t want to talk much at all. Sure, we chat a little bit in the morning, when I get home, etc. but it isn’t our typical conversations. 

Typically, when I get home - well, his place….I let myself in, kiss V, we have sex for a long while, I shower, we place an order for dinner to be delivered, catch up on my reading, respond to emails, eat dinner & have a few drinks, have sex again, we watch the news. After the news, we watch a few tv shows where we have on for background noise, I make my lunch for the next day and go bed. V eventually makes his way to join me in bed; we have sex again for a few hours until we fall asleep in each other's arms.

As I get ready in the morning, I leave V sleeping in bed. I try to leave before he wakes up but that’s not always possible. If he wakes up when I do, he makes coffee for us both, leaving out a banana and a yogurt for me for breakfast. 

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