I felt like I was betraying my new guy while at work today

While at work today, I feel like I betrayed my feelings for T. I didn’t cheat at all just betrayed my feelings for him is all.

This morning, just after the morning meeting, I waited to talk to D about who I was working with. After a moment or two of discussing the subject, I turned to leave. As I turned to leave, I noticed something on D’s ear. I pulled him aside and quietly said that he should check out his ear in a mirror; there’s something on it. He tried to get it off but wasn’t able to.

“Would you mind if I tried?” I asked.

“Sure, Deppgrl” he said.

I stepped closer and reached out with my dominant hand to wipe it off. My hand was shaking severely; D had noticed but didn’t say anything.

“There! You’re all set, D!” I said.

“Thanks, Deppgrl! I’ll swing by in a little bit to see how you’re doing.” D said.

A few hours later, he swings by to see how I’m holding up and dealing with the asshole I’m working with. I told him that it goes, just uber uncomfortable working near the bozo.

“Hey. About earlier….with your ear….?” I say.

“What about it??” D asks.

“Sorry I got into your personal space. Certain things set my OCD off….things that are out of place, collars not sitting straight, that kinda thing.” I say.

“No worries. I would’ve walk around all day with something on my ear and no one would’ve said anything. Feel free to get into my personal space anytime!” D says.

I just nod my head in acknowledgement. I have a boyfriend and I should be getting anxious/nervous around him instead of my boss. I should feel twitter pated around T instead of D.

Gah. I feel like my feelings betrayed me and trying to convince me that I’m interested in D. Yes, I know that at one point that I thought I was in love with D, but clearly I was wrong. Nothing good would come of the relationship between D and I. I should be focused more on my man than my boss.