I’m done with 2021

And it’s not even the end of January yet. I’m tired of Vince’s super over protective attitude (like wanting/needing to come with me to meet up with C), texting me to make sure I’m wearing my mask when I’m out taking a walk with my dog, constant reminders of when (and where) my medical appointments are, etc. I’m tired of C trying to get me to have sex with me again (he’s FANTASTIC by the way) but he has a gf. I keep telling him no because we are both seeing people (even though Vince and I don’t give a title to what type of relationship we have). 

I have a male friend, M, who I’ve met through a previous church (he was the youth pastor, I was out of high schools for 7 yrs by the time we met; he’s still religious while I float between agnosticism and atheism) who’s constantly there for me even though there’s an 8 hr time difference between us. He is my only male best friend. M is one of those friends who does NOT judge their friends but supports the heck out of his friends. He knows about the stuff going on with Vince and C; he believes I should end it with Vince and leave C alone. 

I 100% agree with M on ending it with both Vince and C; they’re both annoying the fuck out of me. Both are great guys - separately - but once they knew someone else had my attention, it’s like they’re both fighting for me. Ugh. I can’t even deal with one guy being interested in me. 

I’ve been talking with my closest BFF (I have 3; bff from childhood, one from both my community college AND from our state college and the other from the state college....Talking about my bff from the community and state college) about the whole situation. She insists that I’m beautiful (we’re best friends and soul sisters - friends who are as close as sisters) and isn’t surprised that guys are fighting over me but does agree with M that I should end it with both Vince and C because at my age, this is a bit ridiculous. She did make me laugh by saying that M is interested in me. I laughed so hard I almost peed myself. LMFAO. Anyways, the last thing I need is 3 guys interested in me. 

I’ll definitely think about what my friend M and my college bff, KB, said....get rid of both of Vince and C. This isn’t healthy at all; not for me nor for them. It doesn’t help the fact that there’s a MINUSCULE chance that M *might* be interested in me.  

Ugh. FML