Monday, January 11, 2021

So I finally decided

I’m an adult and decided to meet up with C after we’re both vaccinated with both shots. As much as I care about and love Vince, I’m not a child nor is he my father, I don’t think it would be appropriate for him to be there nor be within minutes away. I appreciate the fact that Vince wants to be nearby just in case I need an excuse but that would be weird because I’d be driving myself to where C & I meet up. He could always call and feign an emergency. Why would I need anyone to come get me if I drove? I understand it if it was because I had too much to drink or there was an emergency or if someone brought me but there’s no reason when I’m meeting an old lover - who I haven’t seen in a few years and feel indifference towards. 

I don’t feel like C would hurt me in anyway. He hadn’t physically, mentally or emotionally abused me at all and he doesn’t have an reason to do so now. Do I trust him 100%? No. Do I trust him at all? Just enough to know that he wouldn’t harm me. He wouldn’t risk his job nor his relationship with his gf by hurting me in anyway; he isn’t stupid. A pain in the ass? Yes. 

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