Vince called me three days after I left his condo.
His name lighting up my phone made my stomach tighten, flip,
and then settle into something uncertain. I stared at the screen for a second
longer than I should have, then answered.
“Hey,” I said.
“Hey,” he said softly. “I just wanted to check in. Make sure
you’re okay. And maybe see if you’re ready to see me again.”
His voice was gentle—careful in a way that made me exhale a
little.
“Yeah,” I said. “I think I am. Just… give me an hour?”
He let out a slow breath. “I’ll come in two, just in case.”
“I don’t need two - I just need to shower and get dressed.”
“So, an hour and a half?”
“Sure,” I said, smiling a little. “An hour and a half.”
After we hung up, I moved with quiet purpose. I tossed two
bottles of white wine and a bottle rosé wind into the freezer—figuring they’d be just right
by the time we wanted them.
Then I went to shower. It was an everything
shower—rose-scented shampoo and conditioner, rose body wash. I shaved my legs,
underarms, and bikini line. After drying off, I moisturized with rose-scented
lotion, then pulled on my favorite gray sweatpants and a semi-formfitting
t-shirt. Since he was meeting me at my place, I chose not to wear a
bra. Bras are so uncomfortable.
Feeling grounded again, I picked up my phone and placed an
order from my favorite Indian restaurant: chicken tikka masala, saag paneer,
garlic naan, chili garlic naan, basmati rice, mango lassi, and a variety of
samosas. I requested everything nut-free, because the person joining me for
dinner has a nut allergy. They reassured me they take food allergies seriously
and said the owner—who has a nut allergy himself—would be the one to cook the
order. I thanked them for their professionalism and for understanding how
important it was.
After placing the order, I turned the oven on to warm mode
so I could keep everything hot once it arrived.
Fifteen minutes before Vince was due, there was a knock. The
delivery guy smiled when I opened the door.
“Hey. When I saw your name on the slip, I recognized it and
the order right away. Told my boss before I left that I thought we should throw
in some extras since you order from us like three to five times a week—and you
always tip us drivers so well. He said yes.”
“Seriously?” I asked, raising an eyebrow.
He handed me the bags. “Yeah. We added veggie biryani,
baingan bharta, and more naan. All nut-free, don’t worry.”
I laughed, touched. “Thank you. That’s really kind.”
“We appreciate your patronage and how well you take care of
us,” he said, and then turned back toward his car.
I brought the food in, transferred everything into ceramic
dishes, and slid them into the oven. The smell of spices filled the
kitchen—warm, sharp, and comforting all at once.
Right on cue a few minutes later, Vince knocked.
When I opened the door, he stood there in jeans and a navy
t-shirt, holding a small insulated wine tote.
“Hey,” he said, his voice just warm enough to settle the
nervous flutter in my chest.
“Hey. Come in.”
He toed off his shoes and walked in. “I brought wine,” he
said, unzipping the tote and pulling out two chilled bottles of rosé. “Figured
we’d need a few options.”
I took them from him and smiled. “Good call.”
I moved my bottle from the freezer to the fridge and pulled
two wine glasses from the cabinet. I poured him a glass of my rosé and opened
one of his bottles for myself.
We sat across from each other at the kitchen island while
the music he queued up played low from his phone—smooth, rhythmic, and mellow.
When I brought the food over and unwrapped everything, Vince
blinked.
“This is insane,” he said, laughing. “How many people were
you planning to feed?”
“Just us. The delivery guy recognized my name and told his
boss that I deserved extras.”
“Of course he did. It’s because you’re so beautiful.”
We passed plates and dishes back and forth—dipping naan into
sauce, layering bites of rice with paneer, scooping chutneys onto samosas. He drank the whole bottle of my rosé; I drank three quarters of one of the rosés he brought.
We didn’t talk about anything deep. Just pleasantries. We'd
already seen each other most of the week and didn’t need to fill the space with
anything big.
After dinner, we moved to the couch. We sat next to each
other but didn’t touch. Not at first.
A minute passed in silence before Vince leaned forward
slightly, glass in hand, and looked at me.
“Can I ask you something?”
I glanced at him. “Sure.”
He didn’t look away. “Why won’t you marry me?”
The question didn’t land like a bomb. It landed like truth.
And I froze, just for a second, before I even processed what he’d said.
I tensed. I felt it in my shoulders and my stomach but I
didn’t look away.
“It’s because already I’m married.”
His expression shifted, but not in judgment—just
realization.
“I got married when I was nineteen,” I said. “I was in
college and it was… impulsive. Intense. I thought it was the real thing.”
I hesitated. He waited.
“Our friends won’t tell me where he is and neither will his family. And several private investigators can’t find him.”
He leaned back slowly, nodding like he was trying to take it
all in.
“You never told me,” he said.
“I didn’t know how, so I didn’t. I’m sure it feels like I
was hiding something.”
“But you were.”
“I was,” I admitted. “I just didn’t want this to end because
of something I can’t fix.”
He looked down, then back at me. “I wish you’d told me
sooner.”
“I know.”
“I’m not leaving,” he said, voice soft. “I want to help—not
for us to get married, but for us to be together without feeling like there’s
someone between us.”
I nodded, my breath finally leaving me.
The quiet that followed wasn’t tense. It was just… open.
Safe.
He leaned back against the couch, looking over at me.
“So… any thoughts on what we should do this weekend?” he
asked, his tone lighter.
I smiled, grateful for the shift. “Something lowkey. But not
boring.”
He grinned. “That narrows it down.”
We started tossing out ideas—dinner somewhere new, maybe a
drive up the coast, checking out that small jazz place he kept mentioning.
Nothing decided yet. But it was nice to talk about the future like we were
allowed to.
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